i hate high school
I wrote this my sophemore year, I am now a senior. It all still applies and I'm sure, still in high school or graduated, everyone can identify with what I have to say in this in some way.
im not at the head of my class.
im not very smart.
and im not very pretty.
im not the most dependable.
im not always nice.
and im not popular.
im not just like you.
im just me.
im a drama nerd.
im a theatre nerd.
im a choir nerd.
freak.
loner.
loser.
youre happy youre not me.
liberal.
noncomformist.
i dont look like everyone else.
im not a cheer leader.
im not a jock.
i stick to my arts.
i hang out with people who dont
look or think like everybody else.
and i like it that way.
i dont want to be like everyone else
and follow the same beliefs
and religeons as everyone else.
i dont want to treat the noncomformists
like aliens like they treat me.
i dont want to be miss america when i grow up.
i dont want to be a super model
and look like what the world sees as beautiful...
i dont think its beautiful
for a woman to weigh like 10lbs
and wear like negative sized pants.
i dont want to be miss school spirit
and date mr. football hero.
i dont want to be the popular one
by buying friends with money
or what ever it is people do
to buy affection these days.
these people,
these goddamned popular people
call me a freak
but they dont realize
that theyre the freaks.
they walk around like theyre perfect.
who really wants to be perfect?
if theres a such thing as perfect
then, wouldnt the perfect people
only be hated? not admired.
the green eyed monster
that is inside each of us
would kill us...
who really wants to be perfect?
who really wants to be the head of their class?
the smartest?
the prettiest?
the one everyone depends on?
the one who has to always pretend to be nice?
who has to wear a fake smile
and PRETEND that life is just
peachey and grand always?
perfect? ha!
perfectly predictable.
play the predictable sports.
get the predictable jobs.
predictably look like everybody else.
predictably dress like everybody else.
predictably believe in what everybody else believes in
and predictably follow the same god as everybody else.
be the hero
and drive yourself mad
by being what they want you to be
never really being yourself
or doing anything for yourself
youll drive yourself crazy
by trying to be
everthing to everyone.
you know you secretely
want to be like me.
i can be myself
i can be who ever i want to be
keep that in mind
the next time youre waisting your time
on judging me
and calling me a freak.
i hate high school
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Well, I certainly hated high school as well, so I can sort of relate. However, I do think that by bashing everyone else, you don't grow at all, and the only reason you're doing that is because you don't love who you are and you aren't comfortable with being the choir nerd, or the theater nerd.
And I believe that all "non conformists" are conforming to their own "non conformity." Don't strive so hard to be different, to label yourself. Just be you, and love whoever that may be. And don't hate everyone else just because they don't "get" you or aren't similar to you.
High school is full of cliques, but so what? It doesn't last forever =]
Keep writing. Cheers,
em.
tegan_iz_RAD said,
Mon, 04/28/2008 - 10:39 -
Sure you can be who you want, but why jump on everything you don't know? Give things a chance, you sound like you block out everything in this world
Tegan.